Mixed Feelings day~~

8 am i woke up. Got myself ready to go sign the agreement of the Graduate Associate programme. Well, sometimes in life, you think you really want something , but in the end, or after some time, the desire will not be as strong as it initially was. It's like a leprecaun chasing after the gold bucket at the end of the rainbow... where at the end of the journey (and his life) he reaches there only to find out that it was only cornflakes....

Anyway, I get a salary of RM2000 with a really FREAKY bond which states that if i were to break the bond within this 2 years contract, i will have to pay the salary equivalent to the total of the REMAINING MONTHS!! This means if i start today and quit tomorrow.. i will have to pay RM2000 x 24 = RM48,000 for a day's work!! ..... wonder if i can fake my death if i really wanna quit..

There will be 20 Graduate associates, with RM2000 being the minimum salary and god knows what being the highest.. i had doubts in the morning about myself being paid the minimum and pondered around the issue for like... 30 minutes.. and finally saying to myself that it will take too much trouble and effort to come back here again to sign this damn thing and i doubt i can get another annual leave after i hand in my resignation letter. That being the case, i signed the offer letter for the minimum wage :(

Ever wondered why the title is called Wandering Comet? There's a story to it that goes like this...
Once there was a lonely comet who wandered alone through the vastness of space. It was in search of the meaning of it's life, a meaning which it is yet to find out. The comet passed shining stars and beautiful nebulas, watched the birth and death of stars, but yet it was still lonely.. hollow inside the heart.. with a void that is yet to be filled..

One day, it passed through the solar system and was mesmerized by a shining entity... an entity we call the moon... with much eagerness, the comet flew beside the moon and became friends with it... as the bond between the moon and the comet became stronger, only did the comet know that the moon, although with its shining exterior, was struggling all alone eventhough it had the Earth as a companion for eons and eons. It was neglected, controlled, and scarred all over.

Pityful and feeling sorry for the moon, and somewhere deep inside the feeling of wanting to be together forever with the moon, the comet asked the moon to leave together with it.. to go together to explore the vastness of the cosmos,.. to see the birth and death of stars together... to say hello to aliens and goddesses... to live to a death in a way that colours up the skies and the soul. The moon obliged..happily... as it could not imagine its own life just staying at one spot, being neglected and being controlled and being scarred. It wanted to go along SO SO MUCH!!

Then it happened!~ the earth, knowing about the moon's intention to leave, began to realize its actions (or no actions) towards the moon. It begged the moon to stay... it begged so hard... The seas rocketed... the mountains crumbled... human beings were being the casualties of the earth's remorse.... The moon, having a soft heart... couldn't bear to witness such a hurt planet and the dying occupants.... it stayed.

Till today, the comet is still wandering along the borderlines of the solar system... for eternity waiting for the moon to have the courage to say good bye to the earth... and go along with it to together journey space... As the dust particles of the comet slowly break away, meaning the life of the comet is diminishing as well.... it still stays on to wait for the moon, to wait for the moon to assemble the courage to pursue the future it wants... and not living a life to fulfill the future of another planet..

** The story of the Wandering Comet is purely fiction and does not resemble any person alive or dead**